I want love like a stars nuclear fusion

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I can't believe this is happening...

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I feel sick….

I can’t feel or see my ribs anymore.. and I do not remember the last time that I couldn’t.

It’s wierd.

I’m not sure I can deal with this. It’s soft and squishy where I used to be able to feel and count and see each rib.

Oh. My. Gosh.

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I hate skinny people.

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So here I am, trying to learn to be ok with the body God gave me, and trying to gain weight and make it to 50kgs (110lbs) so I can work out with my PT boyfriend at the gym and look hot and fit and toned. I mean if Mila Kunis can be my height and hot as at 53kgs, I can be at least 48 or 50 right??

Anyway, first off, some photo comes on my Facebook newsfeed from Princess Polly of a stunning young girl, maybe 15 or 16 years old, with flippin skinny arms that I ENVY. And everyone comments bagging her out for being “too thin”. Ok. She is stunning. She probably is naturally rail-thin anyways so whats the big deal? Then an argument starts up about how its “sending the wrong message to teenage girls.” Well, have to agree on that one. Here I am, trying to get over my ED and yet mesmerised by the arms I have always wanted. Arghhhh!!!!

Secondly, sitting in a lecture and this chick gets up to do her speech in front of the class. Now she is super skinny and I’ve sen what the B!TcH eats.. She may be a vegetarian cause she’s all animal rights and whatever, but I mean she’s ALWAYS.FLIPPIN.EATING.SOMETHING!! And instead of actually listening to her presentation, or coming up with a discussion question, I am staring at her impossibly tiny waist, stick thin arms, beautiful long legs and perfect complexion and just wanting to disappear. Cause I mean, I may have possibly been her size at one point (not that I could ever see it) but my waist doesn’t look like that. My arms don’t. Neither do my thighs. And if I had a perfect porcelain complexion like hers (NO FRECKLES!!!) I wouldn’t fee the need to smother myself in spray tans and cake on the foundation. Cause theres another thing. This chick only wears mascara and lipstick. :|

Seriously, kill me now. It is impossible to get over this thing when effing beautiful people are walking around campus wherever I go.. And I can’t help staring. Either they think I’m some creepy murderous stalker, or I’m a lesbian. Whatever. I’m just envying them.

I HATE SKINNY PERFECT PEOPLE, BECAUSE THEY REMIND ME THAT I WILL NEVER BE LIKE THEM.

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